Time's what we don't have.

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I get upset over stupid things quite often. Right now is one of those times. It's probably nothing, but it's bugging me far too much. Right now my life revolves around uni work. I see updates on various sites about how much fun everyone else in the world seems to be having right now. I'm quite jealous. I seriously cannot wait until my exams are over. What my life is lacking right now is some time with my best friends. The problem is, I feel like I'm drifting from them. I put effort in and don't get much in return. Maybe they are busy? Who knows. 

I miss the facebook spam and hundreds of texts I used to get from them on a daily basis. I miss the stupid personal jokes and various other laughs we always have. I just wrote out a massive blog post then deleted it cause I felt it was too personal and I didn't want to start shit if someone read it and took it the wrong way. I just read the words "it's a sad day when someone you know turns into someone you knew" and almost burst into tears. It's been one of those days to be honest and I really hope I don't lose people this summer that told me they'd never replace me. 

Basically right now, I need my friends but it feels like I'm losing them. I guess I'd just like for someone else to make some effort for once so it doesn't always feel like it's me contacting them to do something + for them to actually want to do something. Hopefully it will be back to that way after exams though. If not, I have no idea what I'll do. I need them.

My sister used to spend hunners of time with me but recently she's hardly said two words to me. I miss her too. 

Aw whatever. It's all just in my head, right?