I have a strange relationship with food. I don't eat anywhere near enough that someone my age should. I don't eat the right things and I'm a super fussy eater. I wish this wasn't true.
I tend to always leave at least a bit of something on my plate. It's not an active thought - I don't think "Oh, what can I leave today?" It just happens and I can't explain it.
Sometimes I just don't feel like eating. I might not feel hungry, I might just not want anything. Those are the worst. I feel bad for it but again, there is no explaining it. They tend to happen more when I'm stressed, upset or angry at something. Today is one of these days.
Things bugging me right now:
- My lab report
- My immunology essay
- Data analysis test + blood cell test that's coming up
- How little I get to hang out with my friends
- How little fun stuff I get to do right now
- My work. Can't stand it right now
- The fact I'm not eating healthily
- People in general
- Family (The usual issues of my papa + my dad's ill)
I just want a little bit of a break. A week off uni. Somewhere away from here. A bit of change. But none of that is going to happen. I have another ~5 weeks of uni left then it's exams and summer. I finish uni at the start of April. Insane. I need another job for the summer. I need money.
Whatever. I should go eat more.
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