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My dad is being really quiet. He is clearly still upset about stuff. I only really get short one word answers. I really don't like it. I want to cry. How do I make things ok again ?

I have never, ever, cried as much in front of anybody in my entire life as I did last night. It was horrible. I couldn't breathe and I felt really light headed.

The last time I was majorly upset about something, nobody knew, I kept it well hidden, but it wasn't as bad as that. I could still kind of breathe. Nobody knows about that time and I don't plan on telling anyone.

Right now, if I even think about anything related to last night, how my dad felt, or how he is acting now, my eyes fill up. I hate this.

I wish things were all ok.

I always put loads of effort in to forget about what has happened and move on, or atleast let it seem like that, but right now I can't do that if people are going to act like they are. :/